start talking truth to yourself, start to cherish yourself, start to listen to yourself, start to accept yourself the way you are, always remember one thing, allow yourself to accept yourself instead of the world to accept you, make a list of your fears and give your best to overcome them. You work hard, make money, you just do it for yourself, go out, seek people who need your help, and become that sponge that can absorb all the negativity. That's the day when you realize this is something you need to heal your soul.